Wednesday, September 23, 2026

Watermarked: Reflections on Verdi’s Simon Boccanegra

 

Watermarked: Reflections on Verdi’s Simon Boccanegra I walked out of San Francisco Opera’s Simon Boccanegra and apparently was not ready to leave it. Even after the performance was over, people lingered. We had to be put out of the Opera House. I understood why. Verdi’s opera, in Claus Guth’s production, gave me so much to think about that I was still inside it long after Simon Boccanegra’s body was lying motionless on the stage.

At intermission, before I had worked out what all the images meant, I wrote:

This is certainly a memory play.

That was my first understanding of it.

What stayed with me immediately was the mirroring.

There were, in a sense, two Simon Boccanegras: the singer inhabiting the events of his life and another Simon who watched, remembered and sometimes mirrored him. Behind what looked at different moments like a mirror, window or transparent wall, another world existed. People walked through it. The dead appeared there. Sometimes someone would be present in the same theatrical space as the person speaking about them but would remain unseen.


In my notes I called it a two-way window:

Ghosts float between realms. It’s interesting being in the in-between. I like this kind of thing.

It reminded me of walking meditation.

Recently, at a Black women’s meditation retreat, we practiced mindful walking while studying the Seven Factors of Awakening. During walking meditation, people often cast their eyes slightly downward. The gaze itself communicates: I am present, but I am practicing; please do not interrupt me.

I am accustomed to making eye contact when I pass someone, sometimes putting my hand over my heart as a silent acknowledgment: I see you.

The people in Simon Boccanegra did something different. Their eyes were not lowered. They looked straight ahead, almost like zombies—but they were not zombies. They walked past each other while occupying entirely different realities.

At one point Gabriele Adorno, Amelia’s beloved, was speaking about her while Amelia was right there beside him, her face covered by a black veil. He could talk about her but could not see her. Then she walked away.

Maria, Amelia’s dead mother and Simon’s beloved, did the same thing throughout the opera. She could cross through the room while other people spoke of her. She was present to us and absent to them.

It was presence without encounter.

At intermission, I wrote another sentence that now seems to me one of the keys to the entire production:

The only time folks were engaged was when they were trying to harm each other.

That is startling when I think about it.

Tenderness was restrained. Recognition was restrained. People passed one another without touching. Yet violence broke through the distance. When someone wanted to attack, abduct, accuse, poison or overthrow someone else, suddenly there was engagement.

Simon’s plea for peace therefore becomes more than a political speech. He is asking these people to discover a way of being in relationship that does not require violence to bring them into contact.

The absence of touch made the few moments of touch even more important.

When Simon discovered that Amelia was his long-lost daughter, he did touch her. That mattered because so much of the evening had withheld physical contact.

But at the end, when Simon was dying and wanted his daughter’s embrace, Amelia walked in the opposite direction.



I thought, What the heck? Your daddy is dying!

Only after Simon was dead, stretched out on the floor, did Amelia and Gabriele touch his body.

By then I understood that this production was making separation visible. The characters could remember one another, long for one another and move through the same space, yet still be unable to meet.

And then came the final image.

Simon’s dead body remained on the stage, but behind the mirror we saw Simon and Maria walking toward each other.

After an entire opera of people walking past one another, these two finally walked toward one another.

They could finally be together in death in the way they had not been allowed to be together in life.

That is important because the tragedy begins with patriarchy. Maria’s father, Jacopo Fiesco, refuses to allow his daughter to marry Simon. He has authority; he exercises it. Maria is confined in the family home. She and Simon already have a child, but the baby is elsewhere with a nurse. Maria dies. The child disappears. Simon loses both the woman he loves and the daughter he does not know how to find.

Twenty-five years pass.

The opera does not stop and explain all of this neatly. I was glad I had read the story beforehand because events just keep moving. The lost daughter has another name and another family. Pieces of information surface years later: the woman who cared for her, a sailor who visited, the circumstances of her childhood.

Then Simon meets Amelia.

He has actually come regarding Paolo, who wants Amelia, but that plan disappears as Simon listens to her. Amelia tells him she is not really a Grimaldi. She takes out a tiny locket containing an image of her mother. Simon does not get up and inspect the picture; the locket is too small for that. Recognition happens through story and memory—the names Amelia gives him, the woman who cared for her, the details of her childhood.

And while father and daughter are sitting facing one another, putting together the broken pieces of their lives, Maria is there.

Watching.

That was one of the loveliest moments in the opera for me. Maria’s image is in the locket, Maria’s child is sitting with her father, and Maria’s spirit is looking in on them.

For a moment, the three of them are together.

She gets to witness what she could not live to see: her beloved and her child finding one another.

The mirror, the glass and even the shattered glass scattered across the floor began to mean more to me as the opera continued. Memory is reflective, but memory can also be broken. A family story can be shattered and reconstructed from names, objects, fragments and witnesses.

In my notes I wrote simply:

The glass is back.

Later:

Shards of glass form a centerpiece on the floor.

The broken glass kept returning, as though the production would not allow us to forget that remembering is never a perfectly smooth surface.

There is another element throughout the production: stone.

During the tremendous scene in which the patricians and plebeians are ready to fight one another, people are holding chunks that look almost like pieces of asphalt ripped from a street. Simon tells them to stop. Their ancestors handed them these hatreds, but they do not have to keep practicing them. He calls for peace. He calls for love.

And they put the rocks down.

That scene moved me deeply.

My notes from the evening say:

The Doge is a man of peace. He pardons his foes and tells his people they were raised on bloodshed.

And then:

Slowly the townspeople, plebeians and the others put down their rocks. It’s not a beloved community, but certainly not the reign of a tyrant.

I still like that distinction.

Simon is not creating utopia. These people remain deeply divided. They remain capable of cruelty and betrayal. His achievement is more modest and perhaps more difficult: he keeps interrupting the movement toward bloodshed.

Must we continue killing one another because the people before us did?

Must inherited grievance become destiny?

Apparently not, Simon says.

Put down the weapons.

Then later an enormous dark object hangs above the stage. When I first saw it, I thought it was a cloud.

I wrote:

What’s cool is the huge cloud that hangs like a mobile at the center—large, black and gloomy.

Only later did I realize it was not a cloud but a massive piece of rock—a meteorite. It cast shadows over the people below. Eventually it descended to the ground, looking to me like a mound of wet gray clay, with broken glass encircling it.

That first mistake—seeing a cloud before seeing the rock—now feels almost perfect.

At first the burden appears atmospheric: a darkness hanging over everyone.

Then it becomes matter.

Weight.

History.

The production identifies the meteorite with the accumulating burden Simon carries as leader and father. For me, it also became the weight of inheritance itself: violence, grievance, power, patriarchy, history.

The people can put their individual rocks down, yet this enormous rock still hangs over everybody.

In the Opera House lobby there was another huge meteorite on which audience members could write about the burdens they carried and leave some of that weight behind.

So the rocks onstage were no joke.

But against all that stone, there is water.

Simon was a seafarer before he became Doge. As an older man and political leader, he remembers the sea. He misses it. Things made sense to him there. He knew peace there.

I am not convinced Simon particularly enjoyed being a ruler. He knew how to lead, but leadership seemed to burden him. The council chamber is all rigid lines, doors, officials, wall-to-wall red carpet, factions and schemes.

The sea moves.

The political world hardens.

And then there is Amelia.

Paolo knows that Amelia walks along the shore in the evening. It is part of her routine, and he uses that knowledge in the plot to abduct her.

But what caught me was that she chooses the water, too.

She grew up without knowing Simon was her father, yet father and daughter are both drawn to the sea. Simon longs for it. Amelia walks beside it. Her mother is named Maria, a name with long poetic associations with the sea, including Stella Maris, Star of the Sea. I later looked up Amelia and found its Germanic root, amal, associated with work, striving and activity.

I would not claim that Verdi intended all that etymological symbolism, but poetically it delighted me.

Maria: memory, love, sea.

Amelia: work, striving, action.

And Amelia was born Maria before living as Amelia.

She carries both.

As I talked through all of this afterward with ChatGPT, it offered a phrase that stopped me:

The whole family is almost watermarked.

I loved that.

Watermarked: marked by water, certainly, but also carrying a pattern that is hidden until something reveals it.

Simon, Maria and Amelia are watermarked.

And Amelia is a kind of merwoman.

She is also the peacemaker.

That realization became one of the most important things I took away from the opera. Amelia is the person through whom the men finally stop killing one another.

And her peacemaking is not passive.

She speaks.

She tells Simon the truth about herself. She asks him to pardon the men she loves. She defends Gabriele. She asks her father to forgive a political enemy who has been prepared to kill him.

Simon listens to his daughter.

That matters enormously because Simon does not repeat what Fiesco did to Maria.

Fiesco’s daughter loved a man he opposed, so he exercised patriarchal authority and separated them. Tragedy followed.

A generation later, Simon’s daughter loves a man who is Simon’s political enemy—a man who, overcome by jealousy and suspicion, is actually prepared to kill Simon.

The patriarchal language of the opera is difficult to miss. At one point in my notes I wrote:

The girl is a bargaining chip. Who cares if she agrees.

Women are spoken of as daughters, brides, treasures, rewards. Amelia exists inside that world.

Yet she does not remain merely an object being exchanged among men.

She speaks herself into the story.

She changes its outcome.

Gabriele is almost comical in his emotional extremity. One moment he is essentially, I should kill her! I should kill him! Then he learns that the mysterious man with Amelia is her father and swings toward, I don’t deserve to live!

Dude. Really?

Joshua Guerrero made those moments both believable and funny.

But Simon does something his daughter’s grandfather could not do.

He listens.

Amelia tells him whom she loves, asks for mercy, and changes what he does.

Fiesco tried to control his daughter’s love.

Simon allows his daughter’s love to transform him.

In that sense, Simon practices personally what he has been asking Genoa to practice politically:

You do not have to continue what you inherited.

Amelia becomes the place where that lesson becomes flesh.

She is Simon’s daughter, Fiesco’s granddaughter, Gabriele’s beloved and a Grimaldi by upbringing. She stands at the intersection of worlds that have defined themselves as enemies. Through her, those boundaries become porous.

She does not become another rock.

She changes the current.

And by the end Simon has very little time to enjoy what has been restored to him. He finds his daughter only to lose his life. Paolo poisons him. Simon feels fire moving through his veins before Fiesco tells him what has happened.

Yet Simon’s last actions are acts of generosity.

He reconciles with Fiesco. He blesses Amelia. He forgives Gabriele, the man who was prepared to kill him. He entrusts his beloved daughter—his great treasure—to the future she has chosen. And he names Gabriele as his successor.

He dies practicing the peace he preached.

The irony and hope of the ending are that Gabriele, the hotheaded young man, will become Doge. I found myself hoping he has learned something. I hope he seeks Amelia’s counsel. I hope Genoa and Venice find a way out of their rivalry. I hope the new generation learns not to pick the rocks back up.

Because Simon Boccanegra felt remarkably contemporary to me.

I could not listen to Simon plead with people to put down their weapons, stop inheriting hatred and choose peace and love without thinking about the world we are living in now: wars, intolerance of difference, political violence and leaders unable or unwilling to imagine another way.

The opera asks whether history must keep repeating itself.

Simon’s answer is no.

Amelia’s life is an answer, too.

I was also watching the opera differently because I have been studying audio description.

I found myself wondering: How would I describe this room? How would I describe those three doors opening onto the red-carpeted chamber? How would I describe Maria moving silently through a space where the living do not acknowledge her? How would I communicate that Simon’s double is mirroring him? How do I describe an enormous dark object suspended above the characters without interpreting it too quickly?

Those questions made me aware of how much of this production existed beyond the music and translated words.

San Francisco Opera provides supertitles, but this production’s visual language carries an enormous amount of meaning. A listener could hear Verdi’s beautiful music and follow the words while still missing the bodies moving through separate realities, the absence of touch, the veiled Amelia standing beside the man talking about her, the ghosts behind glass, the shattered surfaces, the rocks being lowered to the ground, the meteorite hovering above everyone, and the final image of Simon walking toward Maria while his dead body remains below.

The staging is not decoration.

It is telling another story.

As someone learning audio description, I kept thinking about what a blind or low-vision person would need in order to enter that story too. Not every movement needs to be described. The music needs room to breathe. But some images are essential. Without them, a significant layer of this Simon Boccanegra disappears.

Perhaps that is another reason I remember the production so physically: who stood where, who crossed whose path, who looked, who did not look, who touched, who did not.

I was watching and, at the same time, imagining how to make what I saw visible in words.

The music itself was extraordinary, and Amartuvshin Enkhbat as Simon Boccanegra was magnificent. In my notes I wrote:

The Doge is well done. The singer carries his character in his voice.

That is still the best way I know to say it.

His voice held authority, weariness, tenderness and sorrow. Eleonora Buratto’s Amelia gave the production its living center. Aleksey Bogdanov’s Paolo was wonderfully sinister; sometimes his face alone told you exactly how poisonous the man was. And Guerrero’s Gabriele brought youthful passion, jealousy and, thankfully, some humor into this very serious world.

I also found myself looking around the Opera House with pleasure. Some people were dressed fancy; plenty of people were dressed comfortably, like me. I could see the orchestra. The conductor was a woman. I liked my seat.

And at intermission I wrote something wonderfully simple:

I am so happy to have become a subscriber.

But what I carried home was not simply the singing or the plot.

I carried the walking.

The absence of touch.

The shattered glass.

The little locket.

The people who were present but could not see one another.

The rocks people finally put down.

The great dark stone hanging over everybody.

The sea.

A daughter who becomes a peacemaker.

And finally, the body of Simon Boccanegra lying on the ground while, in another realm behind the glass, the sailor walks toward Maria.

At last, they see each other.

At last, they are walking in the same direction.

When I got home, I discovered that somewhere during the evening I had lost a heart-shaped rose quartz pendant.

I don’t know when it slipped away from me.

But I like imagining that while everyone onstage was being asked to put down their stones, I was unknowingly putting down one of mine.

I hope someone who needs encouragement finds it.


Author’s Note: I wrote notes throughout Simon Boccanegra at San Francisco Opera, including during intermission. When I got home, I continued thinking aloud about the performance in an extended conversation with ChatGPT. I used it as a thinking partner—to research questions that arose, test interpretations, make connections among things I had noticed, and help shape these reflections. I was also watching through my developing practice as an audio describer, paying particular attention to the set, bodies in space, movement, gesture, touch and the visual language of the production. Some language that emerged in the conversation, including the image of this family as “watermarked,” became part of the reflection.


Tuesday, September 22, 2026

PUSHfest 2026@Wanda's Picks


 

the academy of american poets: 2026 chancellors reading

The Academy of American Poets invites you to the 2026 Chancellors Reading at the Guggenheim Museum.

 

Featuring Academy Chancellors Patricia Smith, Eleanor Wilner, Ed Roberson, Tracy K. Smith, Ilya Kaminsky, Natalie Diaz, Jericho Brown, Cornelius Eady, Gabrielle Calvocoressi, Nikky Finney, Kimiko Hahn, and Afaa Michael Weaver. Click to learn more about the Chancellors.
Join us for the 2026 Chancellors Reading and the winners of the Wallace Stevens Award and Academy Fellowship. Friday, October 16, 2026, at 6:30 p.m. Tickets are $20; Academy members receive $15 tickets. Peter B. Lewis Theater at the Guggenheim Museum, 1071 Fifth Avenue, New York, NY 10128.
Buy Tickets for the 2026 Chancellors Reading at the Guggenheim Museum.
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Friday, August 21, 2026

Faye Carol@Wanda's Picks August 21, 2026

 


Saturday, August 08, 2026

Jill Scott@26 Years Tour



Oh, went to see Jill Scott Thursday at the Paramount Theatre in Oakland. She was amazing! It was really "grown-soul storytelling" (to borrow a phrase from Tammy Moir). Scott talked about everything.

Of course, she had to catch us up on everything. It took a minute...but hey, we were not in a hurry. Folks had their drinks and snacks but were ready to jump up to wiggle and rock a bit. Hands were in the air waving the ASL sign for heart, which Scott sent back as she left the stage a final time.

The setting was her front porch: AS/IS on a couple stacked blocks. There was a yard sale: Toxic Relationships, Inner Child, a blouse. Her backup singers were Freemen—love it. They were very good.

Her first number was “Be Great,” which features Trombone Shorty on the recording. A trombonist was onstage. New Orleans, here we go, right! The next song, “Offdaback,” was about the ancestors. The accompanying videos were really powerful.

Her son came out on the rap/song “Norf Side”—Norf Philly. She also sang “BPOTY,” which features Too $hort on the album. The accompanying footage looked at a whole system preying on women and girls: false prophets—preachers and pimps—drugs, sexual exploitation, and political complicity.

Got out about 11 p.m. I drove.

The house-frame interior was red even when there was no porch. Was it Shango or maybe a bit of Oya in the house? There was no rain, but thunder? Oh yes!

The audience was right there with her on classics: “Gettin' in the Way,” “Cross My Mind” . . . (keep running, I thought)—“It’s Love.”

Loved the back and forth. Oakland can sang (smile). Our phones were locked up after we had our tickets checked, so everyone was present in body and mind.

My seat was centerstage: HH 112. My song was the encore: “Golden.” The bassist played a vagina-healing vamp. Coolness. It was a bit of 12-Step, Righteous Living. Let go of what hurts; pain never serves one's highest good. She talked about releasing excess baggage.

She did some cool erotic pieces mixed with lots of smack: one for the Nig-'ahs and Bi—ches, a blues tune performed at the Juke Joint called “Pay U On Tuesday,” “Gettin' in the Way,” “What I'm Feelin'.” She also talked about wanting better sex and about a new lover. They were learning how to play together. She said she was a virgin again (smile).

Songs like “Me 4” and “The Math,” both on the new album, speak to knowing one’s worth and the importance of self-validation.

She wore a really frilly, comfortable black dress. Lots of hat changes and shades—as in cool. She wore this really fluffy, feathery white coat for the song “He Loves Me,” where the sista showcased her vocal range . . . from Leontyne Price to Nina Simone. The women in the theatre and the ones I'd spoken to in the long line on Broadway were waiting for that one. I admit, I didn’t know it—now I am a new fan.

I met a mother and daughter in the line in front of me. The concert was a late birthday present and a complete surprise. The two had driven up from Sacramento for dinner.

The mom was beside herself. She had on a lovely red miniskirt and top highlighting her voluptuous gifts. In fact, they spilled over a couple times. We just laughed as she tucked them back in.

Everyone was excited. She bought a T-shirt. The vendor was reasonable.

Missed the opening act. I don't know what time the To Whom This May Concern set started, but it was way past 7:30. Perhaps it was 9 p.m.

I just people-watched. The woman in front of me had tiny gold Africa stud earrings. Quite lovely.

Folks dressed and came as they were. Scott was appreciative of the audience. She was home. We loved her presentation.

She had the lovers stand up and sing “Beautiful People” to each other. Another sweet moment. I'd forgotten my binoculars. I usually just zoom in with my camera. I also didn't have paper and pen. I just remembered, I did. I could have taken notes (smile).

Anyhoo, it's the 26th year of her career. Wow!



Friday, July 31, 2026

Tribute to Women Who Fly: Paula Pree

 Tribute to Women Who Fly: Paula Pree

Wednesday, July 29, was my beloved friend, Paula Pree's Bearth Day. She would have been 83. Paula blessed us for 82 years before she flew away January 7 this year. 

Last Saturday, Jazz@Wesley United Methodist in Washington DC honored her. Paula was a founder of Jazz@Wesley and of In Process. . . Women's Accapella Ensemble which celebrated it's 45th Anniversary last summer. I was there. 



Sunday, July 05, 2026

Freedom

Reflection on life and endings

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Freedom is a quality that is in a permanent state of renewal. It is not lasting or guaranteed. Shackles don't guarantee bondage and those without chains are not all free.

So why tether my body to earth, why commit my flesh and bones ... to an address once my soul flees confinement?

I sit alone, not lonely thinking about the years ahead.

My spaces remain undisturbed. We gather in public spaces to celebrate each other and then I return alone to this location on a map. My geographies are many.

My homes few. However I have enjoyed visiting strangers, strange lands. I enjoy the return more once I am back.

There is no where I'd rather be than here. Here I am safe. Here I am comfortable. Here I am surrounded by familiar things.

Here is a nice launching pad to other sites where I am also welcomed.

As I think about wills and burials, I feel myself leaning into simplicity.

I went to an art exhibit that featured cremation...the process of committing fire to consume the flesh and bones of a beloved person. Ashes look so indescript. What was once a distinct personality recognizable is an image in a heart. Not these cold gray ashes.

Gone are the false walls erected to separate one life one body from another. Fire erases the superficial.

Perhaps this is why I fear it and embrace it.

Fire is honesty. Fire is truth.

Throw this fragile home into the kiln. Let the flames be her final dance. Play her favorite tune.

Perhaps we'll all hum and cackle and pop out of tune as everything melts into the glowing red darkness.

Ashes look like my hair color gray. The bones are white. The texture is fine.

My friend Fred's ashes sit by my stove. I have a framed photos of us together there too to show what he looked like when spirit joined his corporal body.

I remember releasing some of the dust at Harbour Way Park in Oakland. He liked it there.

My friend Monica's ashes sit in her mother's drawing room. I think Paula's have joined Monica's on the mantel.

Legacy.

A legacy is not the plot or urn that holds remains because I will not be there.

I will be everywhere because it's easier to be everywhere when gravity can no longer hold a body down.

I am not complaining. I am a bit attached to this body and to other bodies. I am sad when they are making their way to destinations I am not ready to follow.

I am old now so these crossings are within view. I try to stay in touch by phone, by email, by text, by telethapy.

I visit too. I write letters, but travel is something I no longer enjoy as much.

I like being home or close to home.

Burial plots

I thought about a bench along a shoreline. It's hecka expensive. I want my bench in a place where my people are. I like the idea of randomness.

Being stumbled upon.

Trees 🌳 are great...hey I am cool with the Wonda Grove, however, benches are places to pause, contemplate, give thanks, take a sip of water, watch a sunset, it's an opportunity for remembrance

Remembrance of this Black Wxmxn life. Yep. My name's on the bench: Ms. Wonda Wander Sabir

Note

Perhaps folks who care need to start saving up.

I have allocated my insurance to my 5 grandchildren. My bench will be a gift to Souljourning for Truth.


Thursday, July 02, 2026

Storytime: Mildred Howard and Nengi Omuku Gather Us Home

 

Storytime: Mildred Howard and Nengi Omuku Gather Us Home

By Wanda Sabir

It all happens now.

I realized, traveling between Oakland and Golden Gate Park in the span of a week, that I wasn't seeing two exhibitions. I was listening to one conversation between two Black women artists separated by a generation and united by memory.

At the Oakland Museum of California, Mildred Howard: Poetics of Memory asks what history leaves behind. At the de Young Museum, Nengi Omuku's The Gathering imagines what waits for us when we remember.

Together they are telling one story.

Storytime.

When I attended the virtual conversation between Nengi Omuku and curator Natasha Becker, Bay Bridge traffic had already decided I would not make the opening in person. Sometimes the Bay teaches patience. I listened instead.

Later, in the African Art Galleries, where there is a short conversation between the curator, Natasha, and Nengi—I'm purposely hanging out in alliteration (smile)—I listened as I walked.

Then I sat down and watched the video.

Once.

Then again.

You know, Nengi Omuku's voice is a soundtrack.

Black women's voices are a soundtrack.

A day later, I finally stood in the African galleries at the de Young. Omuku's paintings rested among centuries of African sculpture and ceremonial objects. It could have felt like an interruption—a contemporary artist inserted into a historical collection.

Instead, it felt like an embrace.

Her work centered; the larger elders embraced her.

The galleries became less a museum than a family reunion.

Omuku paints on handwoven sanyan, ancestral cloth that carries its own history before paint ever touches its surface. The cloth has a sculptural presence. Figures emerge from lush gardens and dream landscapes where memory is less an act of recollection than a way of being.

Standing there, I thought about something I have learned over years of interviewing elders.

Memory is not simply what happened.

Memory is the story we tell ourselves until it breathes life.

Sometimes those stories are inherited.

Sometimes they are imported.

Sometimes they are untrue.

Sometimes we need a reset.

Omuku offers one.

In her conversation with Natasha Becker, Omuku spoke about her work with patients and caregivers in mental health institutions in Nigeria. She understands that painting can be more than representation.

Creative tools are how we heal.

Creative tools are how we recover.

She also spoke about growing up in a home where her mother was a horticulturist. After graduate school, she returned home and worked in the family business. Gardens were not simply places of beauty. They were places of work, learning, and livelihood.

Beauty surrounded her.

So did art.

In Nigeria, sculpture is everywhere. As one sits at a traffic circle there is a bust on the center island. As you drive down the street, you see monuments in city parks. Guys sitting around a table talking—ordinary, right? It's just they are forever stone.



It is the African Art Galleries in real time.

For real origin stories.



Standing there, I realized another conversation was taking place.

Many of the sculptures, masks, and ceremonial objects surrounding Omuku's paintings are far from the communities that shaped them. They entered Western museums through the upheavals of colonial conquest and displacement. Today, museums and communities of origin continue important conversations about stewardship, restitution, and return.

Then Omuku arrives.

Not as a visitor.

Bearing gifts from home.

Not relics of the past, but a living artistic tradition rooted in Nigeria's gardens, textiles, sculpture, and memory.

Suddenly the older works no longer seem isolated.

They are back in conversation.



Omuku said she first imagined herself as a sculptor before one of her teachers encouraged her to pursue painting.

Her paintings still possess a sculptural presence. Painted on handwoven sanyan, the canvas has the quiet authority of sculpture. Woven and then sewn in strips, the fabric has holes so bodies can breathe in the African heat. The cloth is not simply a surface. It is a stitched narrative.

Horticulture adds another layer of meaning.

Her year working in her mother's horticultural business also taught her something larger. She did not need to import beauty or meaning. Much of what she needed was already there—in the garden, in indigenous materials, in inherited knowledge, in homeplace.

By paying attention, the artist discovered she already possessed riches that history had taught many of us to overlook.

Howard, too, grew up surrounded by beautiful objects in her family's antiques business. Omuku grew up surrounded by sculpture, textiles, flowers, and gardens.

Both artists are born from aesthetic traditions.

Neither woman had to discover beauty.

She inherited a way of seeing.

Beauty was not an occasional visitor in either home.

It was part of everyday life.

I recognized the landscape she paints, not because I had seen these exact gardens before, but because I have walked parts of the world that nourish them. I have traveled through Lagos, Benin City, Ile-Ife, Abeokuta, Oshogbo, the Osun Grove, and Badagry. My own ancestral journey has led me across Nigeria in search of stories and homecomings. I wanted to travel farther north, where family history—located within my DNA—tells me some of my Yoruba and Fulani ancestors began, but that pilgrimage will have to wait.




Perhaps that longing is why The Gathering felt so familiar.

It is a painting about return.

Not return to geography.

Return to ourselves.

There is a moment in the exhibition when time seems to stop. The figures wait quietly in gardens that feel eternal. They are not rushing toward tomorrow. They are remembering yesterday without becoming trapped inside it.

They simply gather.



Waiting.

Listening.

Calling us home.

A few days earlier, another Black woman artist had asked me a different question.


At the Oakland Museum of California, Mildred Howard asks not where we are going, but what we have carried with us all along.

Howard says these are stories she has the right to tell because they belong to a people she belongs to.

That sentence became the key that unlocked the exhibition for me.

Her retrospective, Mildred Howard: Poetics of Memory, is less a survey of objects than an invitation to think about the lives those objects have lived before they reached the museum. Howard has always been a maker. Surrounded by antiques as a child in South Berkeley, she learned early that ordinary things carry extraordinary histories if we are willing to listen.


Walking through the exhibition, I found myself listening.

There is the glass house.

There are the floating red apples.

There are bottle houses, mirrors, keys, shoes, family photographs, dollar bills, eggs, and documents that ask us to look again at what America remembers and what it chooses to forget.

Later, I stood before Howard's ceramic eggs arranged with meticulous care. Eggs are fragile, yet they hold life. Complete nourishment rests inside a shell no thicker than memory. Looking at them, I thought about Howard's reimagining of the familiar diagram of enslaved Africans packed into the hold of a ship. Those carefully ordered forms recalled bodies reduced to cargo, humanity measured and counted.

Howard transforms counting into witnessing.

The exhibition never lets us forget that objects are never simply objects. They carry labor, migration, family, grief, survival, and joy. Howard belongs to a generation of Black artists who grew up close enough to segregation to recognize its disguises. There is a racial clarity in her work that refuses sentimentality while never surrendering tenderness.

As I moved through the galleries, I realized that Howard and Omuku were asking complementary questions.

Howard asks, What have we forgotten?

Omuku asks, How do we remember?

Between Oakland and Golden Gate Park, between glass houses and eternal gardens, I found myself walking through one long conversation about memory, lineage, and return.


Part II: Memory

Howard says these are stories she has the right to tell because they belong to a people she belongs to.

Walking through Poetics of Memory, I understood that statement differently.

She wasn't claiming ownership.

She was accepting responsibility.

The stories had chosen her.

And she has spent a lifetime making sure they are not forgotten.

Howard grew into her vocation surrounded by antiques and adults who knew their value. Her parents owned an antiques business in South Berkeley and raised ten children in a home where objects carried stories. They taught their youngest daughter to recognize craftsmanship, history, and beauty. Through their example, they also taught her her own value. The world would have sold her cheap had she let it.

She didn't.


Standing before Howard's glass house, I wasn't only looking at a sculpture.

I thought about my mother's childhood home in Poplarville, Mississippi, where she lived until she was about ten years old. It was a three-room house with an outdoor kitchen and an outhouse.

I don't know what that little house looked like inside.

What I do know are the homes I visited later.

My aunties' homes.

My cousins' homes.

The homes of other Black Southern women.

Years later, I recognized that same sensibility in the homes of my Senegalese family in Rufisque.

Then I saw the women themselves.

Their dresses.

Their posture.

Their faces.

For a moment, I almost called out,

"Grandmother!"

That is what aesthetic traditions do.

They carry memory across oceans before we even have words for it.

I think it might also be a Southern thing.

I remember my mother on Sunday mornings preparing for church. Her shoes, hat, gloves, and purse matched perfectly. Sometimes she wore a veil. I was so proud to be her daughter.

Years later, as an adult traveling in Africa, I saw these same crowns on women preparing for worship on Sundays. Only their crowns were wrapped works of art—long, colorful lengths of cloth twisted, folded, and tucked into magnificent headwraps.

That is what aesthetic traditions do.

They travel.

They remember.

They recognize one another.

Not poverty.

An aesthetic.

Lace curtains.

Framed photographs of heroes.

Scripture on the walls.

Sometimes newspaper tucked inside walls to keep the cold air out.

Blue bottles catching malevolent spirits before they entered the house.

Beauty was a necessity.

It was an act of faith.

An act of hope.

A declaration that despair would not have the last word.

The rooms were full even when physically empty.

There was texture in the air.

There was presence.

Often, before anyone greeted you, you could smell food cooking.

Welcome arrived before words.

Howard returns to that same world in one of the exhibition's largest installations. Home movies from a trip she made to Texas in her youth—footage her mother thoughtfully stored in her pocketbook—are projected onto paneled lace curtains spanning the back wall of the largest gallery.

I stood there for a long time gazing at Moving Stills.  


The lace curtain was no longer decoration.

It had become an archive.

Memory moved across the fabric the way afternoon light moves through a Southern window.

Earlier that same morning, I stood beneath the magnolia trees in Chochenyo Park during Qigong practice. As we poured qi into our crown chakras, I looked up where blossoms rested on fragrant altars just beyond reach.

That afternoon, walking through Poetics of Memory, I read about Howard's Magnolia Project.

Another work pictured here, The Other Side of the Coin, reminded me of the Amazon Queen, Queen Califia, for whom our state takes its name, and of course, Black Gold—Califia's people. Howard inserts her own silhouette where the racist "Gold Dust Twins" caricature once appeared. 

I smiled.

Perhaps that is why the exhibition felt so familiar.

Not because our lives were the same.

Africana history nerd meets mixed-media artist?

Hardly.

But because I recognized a way of seeing the world.

So many stories live in sweet red apples.

Poison.

Beauty.

Secrets.

Then there is the house made of glass and no tree.

Its absence is singularly noticeable.

Where is the parent that gave these apples life?

Where is the orchard?

But then these glass apples are not for eating.

They are for company.

They are for remembering.

The precision.

The lines.

Six by thirteen.

Hum.

Seventy-eight apples.

I counted them.

Keys.

Shoes.

Bottles.

Mirrors.

Eggs.

Photographs.

Objects many people pass by without notice become, in Howard's hands, vessels of memory.

Part III: Value








One of the first works visitors encounter as they walk onto the Oakland Museum of California campus is Mildred Howard's oversized one-hundred-dollar bill.

A Black woman on currency.

One hundred bucks.

It is a photo-op moment (smile).

Howard created the work while she was a student in the Fashion Design Department at the College of Alameda.

I smiled.

Another thing we share.

This year, as Howard celebrates her 81st birthday, I think about the places her life and work intersect this writer's life.

I retired three years ago after twenty-five years teaching English Composition and Reading at the College of Alameda, where I was one of two tenured Black English faculty members. Today there are none.

Getting tenure was one of the happiest days of my life.

Retiring was another.

Tenure meant I could take care of my daughters.

That mattered to me.

Years later, my older daughter graduated from the College of Alameda. While she was a student, my granddaughter attended the same Child Development Center as Howard's ibeji. For a time, Bree's drawings decorated the walls of my office.

If only I knew then what I learned by the end of my tenure.

These institutions are not interested in Black liberation.

Mildred Howard is.

Her artistic inquiry questions even as it answers.

I love her curiosity.

It is her theme song.

There is also her gift for insight and creative reuse.

She has been a maker all her life.

She knew her value.

The world would have sold her cheap had she let it.

She didn't.

Nor did she allow the world to sell her ibeji cheap either.

In Yoruba cosmology, ibeji—twins—are sacred beings, divine messengers whose arrival is considered a blessing.

One story especially delighted me.

Howard belonged to the artists' modeling union. When her twins were old enough to model alongside her, she made certain they received the same pay she received for the same work.

She was also a single mother, finding ways to support her children while remaining faithful to her artistic practice.

That, too, is a lesson about value.

The exhibition begins with locks and keys—a quiet salute to longshore labor, the International Longshore and Warehouse Union Local (ILWU) Harry Bridges, founder, and, by extension, Cleophus Williams, the Union's first Black president. Both men were friends of the Howard family. Labor frames this American story, from the 16, 17, 18, 19th-century holds of slave ships to the 20th-21st century cargo ships moving through the Port of San Francisco.

Howard has spent a lifetime asking us to reconsider value.

Who determines it?

Who measures it?

Who is seen?

Who is remembered?

Material culture is her palette.

Black American culture colors everything.

Howard has spent a lifetime asking us to reconsider value.

Who determines it?

Who measures it?

Who decides whose labor matters?

It is memory made visible.

Conclusion

Later, I wandered into the museum store. Howard's red apples were there. So was her one-hundred-dollar bill.

I picked them up.

I thought about taking one home.

Maybe next time.

I still had to pay for parking.

I smiled as I walked back through the galleries.

Before leaving, I wandered into the final gallery where visitors are invited to leave personal reflections. The walls are already filling with stories. The exhibition has only been open a few weeks. By October, when it closes, there will be hundreds more.

I stood there reading.

Then I realized I had been writing my reflection all week.

It began beneath magnolia trees in Chochenyo Park.

It wandered through the African Art Galleries at the de Young.

It stopped to count seventy-eight floating apples.

It remembered my mother's stories, my aunties' homes, and the women I came to know in Rufisque.

For one brief moment, I almost called out,

"Grandmother!"

It smiled at a Black woman on a one-hundred-dollar bill.

It paused at the College of Alameda, where Howard's journey began and where so much of my own family's story unfolded.

It listened to lace curtains remembering Texas.

It found beauty where the world expected scarcity.

It found value where history often refused to look.

By the time I reached the final gallery, I realized I wasn't there simply to see Mildred Howard's work.

I was there to remember my own.

It all happens now.

Howard has been telling our stories all along.

Now we are telling them back.

If You Go

Mildred Howard: Poetics of Memory

Great Hall, Lower Level
Through October 11, 2026

Oakland Museum of California
1000 Oak Street
Oakland, CA

Spotlight Sundays

Mildred Howard in Conversation
with Nashormeh Lindo
Moderated by Essence Harden

Sunday, July 19, 2026
1:00–2:15 p.m.

Admission includes access to the exhibition.

For tickets, museum hours, and additional programs:
https://museumca.org


Nengi Omuku: The Gathering

Arts of Africa Galleries (Upper Level)
June 27, 2026–May 14, 2027

de Young Museum
50 Hagiwara Tea Garden Drive
Golden Gate Park
San Francisco, CA

For tickets, museum hours, and visitor information:
https://deyoung.famsf.org